Gosh, those words 'hoping for a future with someone I didn't even like' transport me straight back to dating in my early 30s (post big-break up) with a shudder down my spine! You could not pay me enough to go back to those times!! Thanks for bringing it alive so evocatively 😃
I had a “date” like this - eerily similar right down to the black on black on black, hotel bar, mirror checks (minus the faux fur but add a brown leather necklace that I wrapped around my neck for more lusty vibes 🥴) and four hours of listening to him, waiting for a question, any question about me. I love how you summarized this particular kind of wanting without shaming or self-loathing (or the head-shaking self inquiry “what am I actually doing?!” Just thanks for this whole series. I love it.
Gosh, those words 'hoping for a future with someone I didn't even like' transport me straight back to dating in my early 30s (post big-break up) with a shudder down my spine! You could not pay me enough to go back to those times!! Thanks for bringing it alive so evocatively 😃
Right! There is nothing quite like dating (especially emotionally unavailable humans) to strip away your confidence ;)
I had a “date” like this - eerily similar right down to the black on black on black, hotel bar, mirror checks (minus the faux fur but add a brown leather necklace that I wrapped around my neck for more lusty vibes 🥴) and four hours of listening to him, waiting for a question, any question about me. I love how you summarized this particular kind of wanting without shaming or self-loathing (or the head-shaking self inquiry “what am I actually doing?!” Just thanks for this whole series. I love it.
Shauna!
Bizarrely similar. Thank you for sharing. I so appreciate it!
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